Wow! Crazy time

Bad enough with my Fibromyalgia at present, but just had the abysmal OfSTED report from the secondary school where two of my children are and another is due to start in September. The school is inadequate in almost every way.

My children go to a local kids club and are always well supervised but my youngest daughter (clumsy oaf that she is) slipped off a balance beam and face planted the ground. This was early evening on Wednesday. The bruising has now emerged (and she also has whiplash too)  Its awful for her as looking down at school is giving her a lot of pain but she cuddles one of the dogs who is having puppies very soon. 

WOW! New blog

Not posted anything in ages! My Fibromyalgia has consumed me and spat me out again now I'm useless at everything. It's very frustrating. 

I'm elated that its now two years since Facebook reunited hubby and I. I never doubted we'd last as I waited all my adult life with him etched deeply in my heart. I so wish we were together sooner, even in 2000 before he went to Doncaster and I headed to Lincolnshire. I've no idea where we would have ended up but we would be together and happily having a family instead of the 3 miscarriages I've had thru trying over the age of 40. 

I think I've resigned myself to the fact it's not going to happen now. Sad but accepted so I eagerly await grandchildren. I'd still love to be pregnant again, but not to just go and lose our baba. It's heartbreaking. I've passed March 27th when a frog was due, this weekend on May the 12th is when the next baby would've been due and then November 18th is when the last one was due. Every day I could break down over them. I look at Brian and feel so much love and I want our baby, brought up BY US, TOGETHER! It's so heartbreakingly important yet not going to happen.

Such is life eh? Got Daniel staying this weekend and he means the world to me. It's going to be a busy weekend too so I need to hold the Fibromyalgia at bay.