I'm elated that its now two years since Facebook reunited hubby and I. I never doubted we'd last as I waited all my adult life with him etched deeply in my heart. I so wish we were together sooner, even in 2000 before he went to Doncaster and I headed to Lincolnshire. I've no idea where we would have ended up but we would be together and happily having a family instead of the 3 miscarriages I've had thru trying over the age of 40.
I think I've resigned myself to the fact it's not going to happen now. Sad but accepted so I eagerly await grandchildren. I'd still love to be pregnant again, but not to just go and lose our baba. It's heartbreaking. I've passed March 27th when a frog was due, this weekend on May the 12th is when the next baby would've been due and then November 18th is when the last one was due. Every day I could break down over them. I look at Brian and feel so much love and I want our baby, brought up BY US, TOGETHER! It's so heartbreakingly important yet not going to happen.
Such is life eh? Got Daniel staying this weekend and he means the world to me. It's going to be a busy weekend too so I need to hold the Fibromyalgia at bay.
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